having not blogged for approx two weeks,my blog feels so dead.haha.
alright.commons like next week.so fast!i cant even say im fully prepared yet.im jst at the "still-trying-hard-to-memorise-things" stage.oh someone jst kill me.how can i let myself slack into the bottomless pit of laziness?now its so hard getting back up.well,it does feel great studying for a cause though.its like i feel so good all of a sudden.for once im "mugging".hahaha.im not even done with econs yet.and its like the 2nd paper of tues.first is maths.which im not really feeling good about.oh wells.now i know why people study.its that sense of satisfaction you get when you find tt you have done well.better than you caould ever have imagined.i want to taste that more often.but im so dead for econs!hist is even worse.i cant believe im so stupid to go take hist having not take it for the os.im creating a dead end for myself.what was i even thinking about?oh dear i do need serious help.
did gp tca ystd.disaster.i didnt even complete my essay!i was only at my supporting argument two!crap.so disappointing pls.i didnt even conclude!what was i crapping about that i didnt have enough time.oh jst great.if jc life's gg to be this way forever,i think i'll jst die.hahaha.well jokes aside,i had better wake up or i'll end up retaining this yr.so SCARY.!nonono.dont want.dont wna retain!my parents will slaughter me alive.and i'll prolly be on the front page of the home section nxt day.
argh.i seriously need to find a better outlet.a more breathable one.i need motivation to study!
i think im not ponning trng on wed.i'll jst go for it.but i'll study lah.or i'll end up failing hist on fri and end up in tears agn.i dont want tears of disappointment and regret!but rather tears of joy!ok,tt shall be my aim.
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