“life will be better in spring”

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i jst realised there's only four days of school next week,plus no piano lesson.hahaha.labour day jst made me a happier person.((: huh.dnt call me ashlee or ashley okay.

if you're reading this, thanks for being so accomodating.i know im so picky la.haha.cant help it. :D you're really very nice.and all these make me like "NE" more.

its so hard a journey,i feel like stopping it here.but you've never failed to keep me gg. <3

to AP: cheer up!!i feel so sad when you're sad la.(whether you believe or not k!cos maybe we have same frequency?haha.) dnt be sad anymore okay!everything will be better someday.you've jst got to trust and believe yourself.(and im not a goondu k.) :DD

at essential brew.
christopher,kianwee,i,joleen,bestia,cheryl,stella,teddy and jeremy.(clockwise)
cant really see the girls!bad photographer from essential brew.hahaha.

to IMM.ignore hoehan at the back.haha.

girls team! <3

the guys.

JOANNE DEAR! (:
our dinner at adam's road.i didnt finish it!

i learnt many things today.you know,we should really look at things from a different perspective and we'll really see a whole lot more.i was sad at first,but i realised i couldnt be sad forever,so yeah.

thanks for being so sweet. (:

i feel so upset.i want to be happy.but i cant.

we ordered team bag today!hahaha.after ages.(: trng was bad today.its really my problem i feel.i should've seeked retirement from volleyball earlier.

its all my problem.none of yours.

i hate it when you lie to me.stop it.

competition's in a weeks time.first match against IJC.and where are we?jst deeper into a completely screwed situation.

sometimes,all it takes is team effort and understanding.TEAM UNITY.but they never even existed in the jj team at all.im so upset by all these.not all will feel the way i do.but some others do.you'll never know how its feels unless you've really been through it.IT SUCKS.like totally.i dnt wna hate the team.but whats the problem?why arent we addressing it at all?we have no more time left.okay.maybe its jst me.i have not much of time left.i want to achieve something in the name of volleyball.and this is my last chance.i dont want it to go busted.but it already is.and now its even more screwed than it already was in the beginning.main 6 doesnt bother me anymore.i'll jst submit to the fact that im just not good enough for the team.its just that its so WASTED to see a pretty good team like us to under perform.nobody likes losing.it doesnt matter whether we make it or not to the upper levels of nationals.it REALLY doesnt matter.so long as we've got each other,i really think it doesnt matter.why cant we bond as a team?where's all that disparity coming from?i really want to know.all these has been making us all so upset.i really hope we can make it.but how to if everybody is not willing to speak up?you have problems,you open your mouth and say.if not,dont be upset all your life for god knows what reasons.WE KNOW you're upset.but how are supposed to help you if you dont throw it out?i really want all these unhappyness to go away.why cant we be as bonded as the other teams?why must all these happen when we're only one week away?

this is no one's fault i know.but dont you all see?everyone plays a part in making the whole situation better!even the coach.dont belittle yourselves.and everyone should just start playing a part, and treating trngs more seriously.like really.

i hate all this.

"went out" with xueer today.kap macs.hahaha.so funny.we talked ALOT.all the funny things and volleyball.kw!hahaha.hilarious topic.all the rantings made me feel not so alone after all!thanks cheryl!! :D oh we saw quite a number of people too.TTK, paul and [?lenette?].i dnt know how to spell his name.haha.oh wells.and she drew this funny comic on the normal girls and the hci girls.okay,so today was a pretty wasted day except for the fact that i attempted gp.i rewrote the whole thing FIVE bloody times before i gave up.argh,gp!but nothing beats to quality time spent catching up on life.haha.-ps we shall do our nationals properly yeah? (:

nsrcc today.hope we'll be able to win at least a point.and why am i at home?tsk.aaron always scolds me for not gg down to support them.haha.oh wells.

thankyou lynette for listening to all my rants about J!love you truckloads!and no im not crazy.no longer like before i suppose.haha.oh yes and rants about JC life too!oh my goodness.sometimes,we jst cant do anything.god chose the path for us to take,so...accept that.it would only make us stronger wont it?we shant degrade ourselves to that stoop low level of childish people around us,who cant get on with their lives.not forgetting all those people who cant stop poking into our businesses.(: cheer up okay!and i want to read that conv!print it k?haha.LOVES.

to know you better than anyone else.my blessing or my misfortune?

our trng t shirt!(backview) & i like the back.hahaha.

hm.nothing major to update i suppose.accept that im in band 4.kill me please.ive to go for some motivational talk i think.THANKS ALOT.i dnt wna go!!! ): nationals soon.hope everything goes well.good friday tmr.happy hols!(:

wrong thing to do!!!

PASSION FOR GLORY. ACE!(e si) :DD